its TOMORROW

TOMORROW

TOMORROw!

i'm so excited yet nervous at the same time. just thinking of the pitch gives me the usual adrenaline rush that burst through my veins everytime i'm playing a sport.

i want to win. we want to win.

jingwen and i saw miss chew today in jjc because she was here to facilitate the UG teacher's conference held in my school. saw a few other bbss teachers as well, such as mr james foo, miss melissa lim, miss jasmine tay, mr mazlee and mdm fadilah! it certainly brings back memories of my secondary school days. anyway, we had a great chat and gossiped abit here and there with miss chew. was overjoyed to see her again after so long. to date, she's still one of the entertaining teacher to converse with. haha!

alright i'm going to sleep now to recharge myself. shall wake up with renewed strength tml and get ready to set the pitch on fire!

all the best to my

beloved teammates:

jasmine, xianwen,

jingwen, elaine,

theresa, brenda,

christina, tzer jing,

chailing, lixuan,

huiying, connie and

yiting! this match

shall be our stepping

stone towards

bringing our team to

greater heights! :)

enchanted soundtrack makes me feel so happy =D

how does she know you love her?
how does she know she's yours?


HELP ME! I CANT BREATHE! I'M SO NERVOUS FOR SAT'S MATCH WITH OFS!

but i promise myself, i will make those girls cry. its our game, lets give it our best shot!

jasmine told me to delete away my last post. i've no idea why i listened to her, but i guess its because i know that i shouldnt be so condemning.

but then, the invisible yet tangible wall, had already been built.












i'm so worried for my ahma. she's hospitalised due to water in the lungs and very slow heart rate. the doctors have said that her heart is very weak now, due to old age. i know that its a matter of time. i know that every of us have to go one day. but its precisely knowing all these, knowing that your loved ones cannot be around you forever, that makes my heart constrict with fear. death to me, is the scariest. as a christian, i know i shouldnt fear it for thats when i can meet my heavenly Father. but the thing is, i aint so sure that i wont go to hell.

such negative thoughts.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LENGSHAN!

ohh man ohh man, when's my turn to blow the candles? it's only 3 months since i've turned 17!

to theresa darling: thanks sweetheart, for the photo! its in my wallet now, and each time i'm down, i'm sure looking at it will send me heading to cloud nine!

like its 830pm now and i've just complete a part of my history sbq question, which is already a page and a quarter long. yupp, thats only a part, one source out of the five. i'm really certain that my wrist would break after i sit through 6 hours of history paper during my upcoming prelims and As.

but history is such an interesting subject, that because of it, i've already decided what courses i'm going for in the university- sociology and/or politcal science. attaining a degree for either or both courses would enable me to carry on the course of my life exactly the way i want it to, ceteris paribus. hahaha! hopefully, my future career would be one, whereby i would slog my guts out for it because of the passion i have in it, and not because of mere money alone.

i'm getting the jitters for the upcoming issac league tournament where my team would be playing against mostly strong western soccer girls. first match is on the 26th jan and it seems like my stomach have already disappeared. but no worries turtle! team jj is the best team ever, blessed with the greatest coach on earth and superb players, and most importantly, the bond among all of us. as long as we give in our 101% for all the matches in the league, we can hold our heads up high and say "well done".

but sometimes, certain things in the team reminds me of history, where right or wrong doesnt really have a clear divide and we must be objective in oreder to be better judges. but anyway...

butterflies butterflies butterflies.

postcrossing is my new found part-time hobby, thanks to lengshan. it's really fun and exciting AND interesting to exhange postcards with people from ALL OVER the world. its a great feeling to share something to a person in a foreign land the speciality and uniqueness of singapore. haha. just make me feel even more blessed yet, to be born in this country. i'm proud to be a singaporean alright! i've just sent out two postcards, one to Doha, which is a state in Qatar in middle east. plus another one to germany! hahaha. i cant wait to receive one from who knows where =)try it out at www.postcrossing.com =)

sometimes, to tell someone his/her flaws is like trying to climb mount everest. its possible but yet takes great bravery. and tact. you dont know if you might die halfway as you scale that giant. its the same. you dont know if the friendship between you and him/her would be destroyed. but you want him/her to improve all the same, for the sake of his/her future and social standings. yet at the same time, the idea of pointing out one's flaws is questionable, for if we really love him/her, we should overlook at his/her shortcomings and not expect him/her to change because of us. furthermore, such flaws are inborn in our character, thus it would be a feat for him/her to change in a short time. but yet, are we patient enough to wait, to give him/her more grace so that she can truly transform himself/herself to be the ideal person? i guess not. so it comes down to the choice again, of either this or that =/

hahaha. alright! back to homework now. =)

damn those homework;

embrace soccer trainings.

i'm too tired to write and think- essentials to completing the never ending workload from teachers who seemed to be more pressurize for the A levels than me.

SOS!

dec'07 npcc bbq photos (way due!):



clash of the titans



reminiscences of the once upon a time



and the beauty of it all



top of the world

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the mark of something new



the love of my life is the love between friends



photos are really the best things that can make you look back, and laugh and cry at those memories, some of which might be long forgotten, while others you still hold on to dearly.
photos captured that moment, which time cannot turn back to :)

photo grabbed from theresa's blog! thanks love! :)

that was us before JJ Night. a pity we didnt take a snapshot of us AFTER JJ Night. we were like pigs, sweating like crazy and i think we were high on some form of invisible airborne drug. and elaine's lips sure is still sweet despite all the perspiration! hahaha. mass dance was horrendously fun as we danced like monkeys to the music, forgetting all the dance moves after a year. we didnt care if we were making a fool out of ourselves, because everybody was too, and that was how the adrenaline came pumping, with every pore of our being jumping with excitement. i mean, i guess this is even better than drugs. and way more healthier too haha.

so school's started and i can feel the pressure of the approaching As, as this year, its been pushed forward to October! ohh God bless us all! haha. which means all of our major exams will be pushed forward too, and thus soccer season will so unfortunately, clashed with our common tests. i swear i need superhuman strength and memory to pull me through this seemingly impossible year! but there's issac tournament to worry for first. even the thought of it gives me butterflies :/

i wished i had somebody to lean on.

alright! homework time! i've got to study consistently (advice from miss lim haha) then i would not have to fret for my academics! :)

so its the new year yet again. for this perfectly busy and ardous year for me, i'm going to:

#1 scimp and save on my allowances so that my bank account will look somewhat nicer

#2 study by my pool side/in school everyday because i cant risk failing my As. no procrastination girl =)and study smart!

#3 train myself even more so physically and skills wise, to prepare myself for soccer tournament and to win it together with my team!

#4 DIET DIET DIET

#5 meet up with my dear old friends as much as possible over dinner or something, which means i have to balance my time for studies, soccer and social life very well.

#6 FIND NEW LOVE! hahahaha.



number 6 is just an option to make me feel better. haha.

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celebrated rikun's birthday yesterday at mambo billards. his actual birthday actually falls on today (new year baby!) but he's got this really sweet and loving girlfriend who planned a surprise birthday party for him yesterday before we all rushed down to countdown.

it was so hilarious at first because we saw rikun and his girlfriend approaching the pool venue and we had to run for cover! we certainly hope that he did not spot us and he sure didnt, with credits to marcus's sharp eyes.

spotted daryl lai with jiahui and cc and i screamed his name AGAIN, causing him to fall down in shock. so sorry about that pal but i just cant contain my excitement in seeing you! and he warned me never to do that anymore but i cant promise it! haha. then jill came along, looking taller than ever and we all started reminicising about 4e1 class chalet, throwing insults at the narutards once in awhile. haha.

and we waited for this llllllllllooooooooong for the cake to arrive and still it didnt! expected arrival time: 8pm. we waited til 9.15, got impatient then decided eventually to surprise rikun with just ourselves. bad service can!

we ran into mambo, shouted and slapped him on the back as he was playing pool with his pjc friends. of course he was surprised lar! awhile later, the cake, the ICE CREAM CAKE finally arrived. i realised ice cream cakes posed two major probs:

#1 you need a certain amount of strength to poke the candles into the cake because its like frozen hard.

#2 you need a hammer to actually cut the cake. haha!

finally after the birhtday songs and everything, dear aaron sacrificed his pool time to help us cut the cake, in a very ungracious manner though, because its impossible to cut it in nice little proportions. the knife almost broke. but the cake was certainly heavenly, but no doubt, full of calories =)

we broke into 2 groups of fours after that and rushed down in a cab to esplanade to catch the countdown and fireworks. jammed at esplanade area and we hopped off the cab, squeezed throught the crowd to meet the others who were surprisingly, earlier, even though they hailed for a cab at a later time. their cab fare was also cheaper lar. anyway, the whole area, from esplanade to marina was so packed and crowded with teengagers, families, blangadeshis and lah blah! but the night was pretty cooling so tempers were kept at the minimum haha.

further human bashings and squeezing before we finally found the best spot to catch the fireworks- on a grasspatch. the poor grasses were trampled so badly on! we had about 10 mins of remaining time before the countdown commence and we each took those spray cans thingy we bought and prepared ourselves to shoot at people when the fireworks explode in the air. those were our armed artileries! haha.

and then the spotlights shone and high up into the air, the first sight and signs of those beautiful and exciting fireworks were seen! all around were cheerings and shouts of jubilant. and we started spraying at people infront and behind us and we got sprayed alittle too. but some people were what you called, wet blankets. they turned and glared at us and made those tsk tsk sounds when we sprayed on them. like heyy! new year what! everybody was spraying everybody dont be such a killjoy lar! but still others laughed it off and continued cheering, while i busied myself snapping shots of those beautiful creations high up in the sky.

finally, it was over in about 15 mins but the crowd was still high with estasy. many though tried to make their way back to the mrt and bus stops, which resulted in more squeezing and pushing and this and that. weizi tried wishing strangers happy new year but people just ignored him! i laughed at his lameness, and got my retribution soon after. i thought i saw a friend infront of me so i stretched out and tapped him on his shoulders. he turned and i was like "shiet! wrong person!" hahaha. so damn embarrased! weizi helped me by saying happy new year to him and i kept on laughing at myself.

sidetracked halfway through as we debated over certain stuff but finally peace at raffles mall and we walked all the way to meridien hotel kopitiam for supper. i ate fried carrot cake which cost me four absurd bucks! but to be able to rest was good because my feet were aching so badly, i almost cried out.
lesson learnt: never wear new shoes if there are prospects of long walks. haha. cabbed home with dekkai and weizi while the rest went to marcus's house to sleep. home bound at about 3.30am, had my bath grudgingly, read abit of the newspapers (didnt know they delivered it so early in the morning) then climbed onto my bed and fell into a deep sleep until around 12 noon, waking up feeling alittle disorientated. haha.

what an adventure. haha =)

so for now, i'm dreading school tml. as in really DREADING. i need some form of motivation to pull me through. HELP!