jasmine told me to delete away my last post. i've no idea why i listened to her, but i guess its because i know that i shouldnt be so condemning.

but then, the invisible yet tangible wall, had already been built.












i'm so worried for my ahma. she's hospitalised due to water in the lungs and very slow heart rate. the doctors have said that her heart is very weak now, due to old age. i know that its a matter of time. i know that every of us have to go one day. but its precisely knowing all these, knowing that your loved ones cannot be around you forever, that makes my heart constrict with fear. death to me, is the scariest. as a christian, i know i shouldnt fear it for thats when i can meet my heavenly Father. but the thing is, i aint so sure that i wont go to hell.

such negative thoughts.

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LENGSHAN!

ohh man ohh man, when's my turn to blow the candles? it's only 3 months since i've turned 17!

to theresa darling: thanks sweetheart, for the photo! its in my wallet now, and each time i'm down, i'm sure looking at it will send me heading to cloud nine!