Rules of the Taggy Quiz :

A] People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B] Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
i'd probably be chucked into the mental hospital. haha.

#2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
i know its cliche, but yeahh, world peace.

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
it will be held in the zoo! the zoo! my husband and i will make a grand entrance riding the elephants :D

#4. What is your favourite love story?
the notebook and lakehouse.

#5. What's your ideal lover like?
someone who can love me back unconditionally.

#6. Which would you go for, someone you love or someone who loves you?
someone who loves me. if i were to go for someone i love, yet its unrequited, i dont think i'll be happy utimately. but i'm sure i'll be happy spending my life with somebody who loves me, because one day, i'll be touched by his care, and i'll learn to love him.

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i'm not yet 18! so i'm still willing to wait until my mr right comes along. but when i'm 30 and still available, then i'll probably not wait any longer, but take some action to scout for the man of my dreams haha.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
take sometime to mourn for my loss first, then pick myself up, and change target.

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yes of course. the same thing which makes me unhappy for the past months.

#10. What do you want most in life?
HAPPINESS

#11. Is being tagged fun?
considering this is my first time being tagged, its rather fun :)

#12. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
MARRIED, WITH A CHILD, a blessed family, and offering my service in humanitarian aid all around the world.

#13. Are you someone who plans for rainy days?
unfortunately, no. i'll learn to do so one day.

#14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
he's a great friend, who is never scared to speak his mind. and he sure speaks alot. haha. very loud, yet thinks deeply.

#15. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
if i have to make a choice, i'd rather be single and rich. you can never really live life being poor and worrying everyday about unpaid bills in this increasingly materialistic world. besides, being rich doesnt mean you will not be happy!

#16. If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be?
a horse! and i'll learn to ride it like the wind!

#17. What is your favorite song right now?
my blog song, Better In Time by leona lewis.

#18. What kind of person do u think you are?
i think i'm a really nice girl (haha), adventurous and very very very sentimental and emotional.

#19. What do u think of death?
its inevitable, and very scary.

#20. If there was something you could change about yourself, what would it be?
the fuctions of my left brain! i want to be artistic, blessed with the gift of art!

I was tagged by LIM JUN KAI!
I'm tagging: THERESA. ELAINE. WEIZI. VALERIE. MARQUEZ. MARIA. DARYL. HUIYING :D

studied at lixuan's house yesterday! FINALLY get to meet some of the girls! haha was very happy. woke up close to 12 noon actually and wanted to stay at home to study instead. msged lixuan to apologised, but she worked the guilt thing on me by saying she's gotten everything ready for my arrival. didnt have the heart to reply another msging, asserting my decision to stay at home. so, i bathed, ate my lunch, and went over. trudged from lakeside mrt to her place because i've forgotten how long the distance was! good workout anyway. i guess i managed to burn some calories. its been awhile since i've excercised!

lixuan's house is huge and high! 3 floors and i swear its tiring to climb up all the way. she decorated her house with man utd merchandise, like their balls and towels. it seems like her whole family is man utd fans haha. but its only her! her drawer was also filled with newspaper cuttings of mau utd pictures! hardcore fan, she.

i cant wait for soccerettes chalet! although i dreaded the idea initially (i mean, right smacked in the middle of june holidays when we can be studying), i'm just counting down to the day where we can have an all girls' get away, but of course not forgetting coach! total havoc i think :D

anyway, was blog hopping just now, and came across this blog, which i really enjoyed reading thoroughly. and ladies! i'll think you'll enjoy it tremendously too. its like reading a woman's magazine, just online:

http://holly--jean.blogspot.com

do check it out :)

In the beginning, there was nothing at all but the moon and the sun. And the moon wanted to come out during the day, but there was something so much brighter that seemed to fill up all those hours. The moon grew hungry, thinner and thinner, until she was just a slice of herself, and her tips were as sharp as a knife. By accident, because that is the way most things happen, she poked a hole in the night and out spilled a million stars, like a fountain of tears.
Horrified, the moon tried to swallow them up. And sometimes this worked, because she got fatter and rounder. But mostly it didn't, because there were just so many. The stars kept coming until they made the sky so bright that the sun got jealous. He invited the stars to his side of the world, where it was always bright. What he didn't tell them, though, was that in the daytime, they'd never be seen. So the stupid ones leaped from the sky to the ground, and they froze under the weight of their own foolisness.
The moon did her best. She carved each of these blocks of sorrow into a man or a woman. She spent the rest of her time watching out so that her other stars wouldn't fall. She spent the rest of her time holding on to whatver scraps she had left.


happy birthday noi.

so a few days back, man utd won the champions league, grabbing two big titles to their club name. and almost every man utd fan i congrats went "glory glory man utd" in my face haha. ohhk at least it is much more acceptable than some cocky man utd fan who, in the early morning in the school canteen, held up some man utd scarve and proclaimed to the whole uninterested school population, his fanatical love for his club.

gosh. but so what liverpool's got no title this year? we'll never walk alone and is still the best club around :) anyway, found this on youtube. The Kop song Reds fans dedicated specially for fernando torres. its like super cool:

His armband proved
He was a Red
Torres Torres
You'll Never Walk Alone It said
Torres Torres
We bought the lad
From sunny Spain
He gets the ball
He scores again
Fernando Torres
Liverpool's Number Nine
Na Nar Na Nar
Fernando Torres
Liverpool's Number Nine

my number's close. just flipped the 6 over and its 9! :) i hope i can catch spain in action.

career fair on wednesday was rather beneficial. especially the exhibition part. i really want to take up the scholarship for SAF. you know, i get to go bmt with the guys next year, plus i will be paid a monthly salary of a regular in the army! my tuition fees will be covered in the uni, and really, it has all the perks. but then again, a few things are holding me back.

1) i must do like extremely well if i want to receive the scholarship. CAN I? thats the question.

2) am i willing to go through uniformed life again? 4 tough years in npcc with all the marching, corporeal punishments etc. and then there will be a 4 to 6 years bond with the army. will i want to do it all over again?

from chris's blog:

& the other thing is, there's BMT for 3 months.
i dont like push-ups.
i dont like punishments.
yea i can take running but i doubt bmt's just ten rounds a day.
my biao-yee's bf said bmt's horrible.
only monsters will say it's shiok.
i dont want moss or worms growing out of my toes when e boots get soggy.
neither do i not wanna shower & jut be contented with a powder bath.
plus there's menses!
i'll probably get pimples on my ass if e officer gets mad.

LOL.

3) i'm obsess with getting myself inked. tattooed. and i so badly want one on my right tigh after graduation. joining the army would means giving up on my graduation wish. once again, am i willing?

but once again, army life seems exciting and like it would provide you with countless opportunites to realise your potential or do things you've never done before. say for example, humanitarian aid. and its all these that attracts me to take up the scholarship. furthermore, daddy's all for it, and he encourages me to follow his footsteps.

ARGH. i cant believe i'm going to be an adult soon. no longer can i hide under my parent's wings, for it is shameful for me to do so. it comes to this period of life where it would be my turn to take good care of them, and my turn to provide for them. but it also means, i'll be on my own. no longer the little girl, but someone who have to carve out the rest of her life by herself.

its scary.

had a blast of outdoor fun on thurs, where i got really soaked in sweat and adrenaline rush. soccer in the morning and basketball after school. i love the feeling of playing basketball again. its been awhile since i've bounced the ball. and playing with the soccer girls, lingdi and some other people reminds me of last year when i play basketball almost everyday. PLUS it reminds me of how i got to know crystal hahaha. anyway, i think chai is superb. like she should either 1) join the guys soccer team or 2) join the basketball team. haha.

friday's gp test after school was horrendously torturous. my shoulders ached so badly, and my stomach growled so loudly during the paper, it disturbed my friends beside me. could only smile and apologised sheepishly. could actually let off some steam after the paper ended, but had to meet my mom for dinner. so missed out on soccer with the girls and the usual guys we would play with.

AND I MISSED SOCCER ON SAT AGAIN because of my bloody dry eyes. thanks to my vanity of course. i refused to leave house with my specs on, so i got to wear my contacts almost everyday so i'll feel assured at the thought that at least i look better. woke up on saturday morning and my eyes were dry and red, and so i decided to give street a miss.

this translate to not seeing the girls for like until today. which is like ages. i hope they're missing me because i'm missing them too. actually, i could actually see them today in school. if its not for my laziness to not leave house to study with them. but i'm lazy(!) and the heavy rain in the morning makes it so shiok for me to sleep in. i miss the soccerettes!!!

shopped yesterday at vivo with family after church. just kept walking and shopping, walking and shopping. and i bought many clothes! its the GSS after all. and its not that often i indulge myself in retail therapy. for one, i've got no money. and i'm a jc student too. i dont have to rummage my closet everday, and worry what clothes should i clad on to school. like the poly people. well, daddy and mommy were great, willing to spend on sis and me. i love them. which makes me so guilty after the shopping spree.

so anway, was online yesterday night (after shopping) to rush through my Phsysical Quality (testimonal of ourselves, which we're supposed to write for ourselves) so its a whole lot crap of bullshit. i felt so damn thickskin writting the whole thing, but its like that in the outside world. you've got to sell yourself, make yourself look like an attractive package, so people would want to hire you or give you a place in their uni. there's no such thing as overlooking your flaws. honesty is not the best policy, no, if you want to get far. life's a bitch sometimes.

SO ANYWAY, i sidetracked again. was online yesterday night, and the two people i missed the most, were online and we chatted! khine and yishu! i was overjoyed! khine's fine with kevin, and yishu injured his knee AGAIN haha. its a really great feeling chatting up with old friends. and jill said she laughed her ass off becuase coach looked like an older version of yishu haha. yeahh, just hope to see them again. yishu kept saying "aite", which only reminds me of noi becuase he always say that too. and khine asked me if i had any boyfriend now. i said no. GIRLFRIEND? she asked. i wanted to smack her. haha.

noi's birthday is coming. 29th may. its a constant mental debate of whether should i get him something, and even ask him out to celebrate his birthday. i dont know what i should do.


I told Seven the Bartender that true love is felonious.
'Not if they're over eighteen,' he said, shutting the till of the cash register.
By then the bar itself had become an appendage, a second torso holing up my first. 'You take someone's breath away,' I stressed. 'You rob them of the ability to utter a single word.' I tipped the neck of the empty liquor bottle toward him. 'You steal a heart.'
He wiped up infront of me with a dishrag. Any judge would toss that case out on its ass.'
'You'd be surprised.'
Seven spread the rag out on the brass bar to dry. 'Sounds like a misdemeanor, if you ask me.'
I rested my cheek on the cool, damp wood. 'No way,' I said.
'Once you're in, it's for life.'

ah huh. that's love.







we're like a poster team outside a sports shop!

apparently, miss singapore universe 2008 will not be aired on tv, and there goes my only chance to catch my idol in action! and guess when's the finals? TODAY! like PLEASE! cant they make this whole pageant thing more grand for my idol's sake? at least hold it on a weekend so i could go support her (even though i'm not sure if she knew i exists in the first place haha). ohh man! i really wish she win a title at least because i know she's got the substance! she's so hot, so sexy, so beautiful, its quite sad i'm not a guy! haha. i'm so going to visit her blog everyday to make sure i get a first hand account of her experience in the finals, as well as to goggle at her drop dead gorgeous photos!

ALL THE BEST TO N***** for Miss Singapore 2008!

shit. i swear i'm crazy about her. but no, i dont have lesbian tendencies. its a kind of fan and idol thing. haha.

so anyway, i pon school today to study for geog test which was to be taken in the afternoon. blame it on my laziness. totally threw away my weekend and an extra day of holiday just like that. i really need motivation to mug hours straight because there's a whole pile of things to cover and i'm suffocating already! but still, encouragements were rolling in, and friends like this puts me back on the track.

marquez:

Hey turtle! I believed that A levels are coming and it will be stressful. Maybe you are feeling the pain. Just want to say- take care! Study hard! Jiayou!

Thank you too. Don't allow your stack of papers to scream at you! Read it! Haha.

Thank you sweetheart for always being there. SPAIN AND GERMANY ALL THE WAY! haha.

after last minute cramming, went to school to sit for the test. totally screwed up a 16 marks question asking to discuss about the mitigation of flooding. i totally skipped that section because i was confident they wouldnt ask such content! clearly, i was wrong. after the test, waited at the bus stop for jingwen and the soccerettes for like half hour because they were playing soccer in school. dare not linger around the school compound for fear of getting caught by any teacher who recognises me. haha.

once they came out (finally), they started commenting on my newly trimmed hair, which was really thin lar. haha. and we started discussing about euro 2008! i think its going to be exciting eh. tzer confirm support germany one, and i think germany's great too! but what i want to say is, i feel so happy to see the soccerettes and talk to them. somehow, the fill up my emptiness in a very positive and healthy way. and i'm glad i have them until the day i die haha.

AND brenda yiting jingwen and chris are FOC. they tricked me into thinking that brenda was wearing the same pair of specs, even though i clearly knew that she changed it to make me confuse! first, the blue thick frame, then to her usual pair. for awhile, i thought i was seriously disillusioned, but brenda and yiting's cheeky faces assured me that it was yet another prank. i think getting punked is so normal now, especially when bren is your friend. one day, i vow to let her have a taste of her own medicine *evil, resonating laughter*

cant wait for tml's career fair! i want to do so many things in the future, i really dont know which to choose! i hope tml's event will benefit me greatly, and help me cut down on my scope of interests so i'll be more sure of the route i would undertake :)

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choices have consequences, thats what my friends said. hear, hear. my flesh is weak, and i've made many choices, which i lived to regret. there are may things that i wish i could undo, and given a time machine, i would definitely embark on the quest to do so.

couldnt sleep last night as thoughts of a certain choice i made kept haunting me. i think it wouldnt affect me so badly, if i didnt know that a particular person knows about it too. it is because of that person that made me feel so sorry for the action that i've took, and made me feel so ashamed too. i'm not sure what he feels about me now, couldnt really tell from his msg, but i dont think i can face him anymore.

i think i've lost all innocence.

and i wished he was here all along, even right now, because i think only he can probe me back to the right direction.



choices have consequences. i'll remember that.




It’s been the longest winter without you
I didn’t know where to turn to
See somehow I can’t forget you
After all that we’ve been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who’s there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn’t know
If you didn’t notice you mean everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
Im gon’ be OK

Thought I couldn’t live without you
It’s gonna hurt when it heals too
It’ll all get better in time
And even though I really I deserve to
It’ll all get better in time

I couldn’t turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I’m dreaming don’t wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that’s the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn’t notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I’m learning to love again
Im gon’ be OK

Since there’s no more you and me
It’s time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I’ll be fine without you
Yes I will

i think its neccessary for me to blog a really long entry again, considering the long hiatus and a couple of rather significant things that had happened during this period. haha.

had econs and geog paper 1 mid years last week, and everybody were really mugging hard, especially for econs. for the first time this year, i actually felt very satisfied of myself, because its officially the first time that i really sat down and studied hard for like 5 hours straight. haha. but alas! when the tests came, the questions bombarded me like some form of alien invasion. so for now, i just got to pray hard that my answers made at least the most common sense and that the teachers would be sweet enough to give me a passing grade. i really detest feeling so insecure after studying hard, and the kind of disappointment i might receive upon getting back my results. i guess this is how one distinguish a jc student from students of other tertiary institutions. haha. another apparent tell-tale sign is when one is still attempting to squeeze the content of 100 pages of notes into his mind like 1 minute before the exams commences. haha. we are stressed up young adults.

and now my only form of release in playing soccer may take the backseat too because of the damn thing known as opportunity cost. i would need to forgo my time to study if i choose to play soccer and the fact that there's already so little time left is beginning to put me on the panic scale.

so therefore, i would probably put on tonnes of fats and be so unrecognisable until the end of my As. this is depressing.

on a happier note, weizi and suresh dropped by while theresa and i were studying at coffee bean on wed. was really overjoyed to meet weizi after quite awhile. but their presence cost us our peaceful studying time and so, we began talking from like 7 to 10pm! my thick stack of notes were staring at me from the table, calling out for me to read them, but i conveniently ignored the voices, leaving me with only guilt after that.

weizi and i chatted alot and i realised i missed him so much! there's just never ending conversations with him, and i guess, we're just born best friends.

weizi:

"haha. ya. we never seem to run out of topics! haha. i'm happy too but i really hope we can hang out longer. today wasnt really good. haha :)"
all the best in your quest in searching for love haha.

being able to talk and journey home with weizi that night got me missing a few of my secondary school friends whom i've not seen for quite awhile already and i really miss them!

khine- my buddy since primary 6 to secondary 4. miss her and those most personal conversations we always had. almost got to meet her at rp the other time, but unfortunately, we didnt.

daryl and wanyu- miss them both because they two always make me laugh and feel very happy. miss daryl's chit chatty voice and miss hugging wanyu. miss reminiscing old times with them both and miss debating with daryl over religion and many other things! haha. ohh and miss discussing about sex with jill and them too. horny people :D

menglan- miss this sweetest heart of sweethearts. miss chatting with her, miss her chirpy, animated and always excited character and miss seeing her smile, so warm and lovely.

yuting- miss talking to ah gong because she always shares with me very interesting things she knows or had experienced and she always makes me laugh with her funny comments.

yishu- miss going out and chatting with him, because conversations with him are always deep and makes me think. miss him because he had been one of my strengths to go through each day during my most raw times last year.

maria- miss her bubbly and cheerful nature, and her words which always edify me. miss hearing her beautiful voice singing and her hearty laughter, which always reminds me of how God makes the most wonderful things.

sometimes, i'm so preoccupied with my friends from jc and soccer and other stuff that i neglected the friends i've mentioned. although i may drop them a sms or two once in awhile, its really never enough.

"We've gone our own ways and I know its for the best, but sometimes I wonder will I ever have a friend like you again?" -Blink 182

"Even if we never talk again after tonight, please remember that I am forever changed by who you are and what you meant to me." -Chasing Amy

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the history students attended a 'Taking Sides' event yesterday at rjc. was quite interesting overall, because being in rjc itself was like so exciting already. the school is like a country club and is HUGE. and apparently, they received huge sums of donations from organizations like lee foundation, shaw foundation and singapore pools. some anonymous individual also donated money to them. AND singapore pools actually donated an annoying large sum of 1 million dollars! can have some for jj anot! but of course, we're talking about a prestigious school, and its because of such earnest support that keeps them basking in the glory of having the smartest brains there.

was rather nervous before my team's presentation because linda and junkai, the other two speakers only saw the powerpoint slides on the day itself. our group were so ill-prepared and i rushed through the slides the night before, depriving me of my much needed sleep! i was so exhausted and bad-tempered and snappy the next day, especially when the sickening monthly bleeding monster caused me terrible stomach cramps. HAVING MENSES SUCKS! but of course, its part of being a woman and i should be happy that my cycles are regular unlike my sister's.

ohhk so back to the history thingy. we were up against rjc (mind you, rjc!) and we took the side of "The outbreak of the Cold War in Europe can best be understood in terms of insecurity." unexpectedly, our presentation went rather well, even though we didnt rehearse. i guess its because linda and junkai both got the gift of the gap, especially junkai who did so amazingly well, he made the audience laughed too. i think we did better than rjc because they just kept reading off their notes and none could abosrb the overwhelming content they threw up in bullet train speed.

so anyway, it was stella's birthday too and our clique celebrated for her after the day's event. connie, wanqing and i went home first and didnt join them at settler's because we were so tired and in need of sleep. went home to nap for 3 hours and woke up to prepare myself to meet the clique at bugis for dinner. bought famous amos cookies for stella and hope she enjoyed munching on it!

met up with wanqing and connie at je interchange and we saw theresa(!) day dreaming while waiting for the train! was so delighted to see her and weijian about it hahaha. so anyway, while the three of us were on the train, we started talking about the presence of God and how wanqing havent felt it yet. at the precise moment when we started the conversation, i felt the presence of God upon me, in the crowded mrt train. i didnt tell connie nor wanqing, as i was taken so unaware. God comes at the most unexpected time. Praise the Lord!

dinner with clique was so much fun, i couldnt write down every single detail so in a nutshell:

went to this Hong Kong style restaurant at bugis junction (near seoul garden) there to have birthday dinner with stella. since we came in a rather large group, we took up the end of the restaurant, which was quite cosy. the food came in large portions and they were yummy!

since stella was the birthday girl, she got a "da bei nai cha" (big cup of milk tea) on the house. and i swear it was really big! nono, thats an understatement. it was GIGANTIC! the biggest cup of any form of beverage i've ever seen, with the longest and thickest straws! haha. she served all of us the na cha and was enough for each of us, even though our smaller individual glasses were bigger than usual.

camwhoring after dinner at the same place while we waited for seok peng. camwhoring session was so fun, and we really took alot of photos. halfway through, bestia spotted a fight between a middle aged couple and a group of people downstairs, near the bugis fountain. being the typical kpo singaporeans, we all crowd at the window, trying to phantom what was the argument all about. people were crowding arund the scene and emotions of the involved party were rather high, judging by their facial expressions and actions. they started taking out their handphone to call people, and we assumed it was the police. we were right! like half hour later or so, two police officers came. haha. as we were upstairs, we do not know what the argument was about, and so we pretended to be each pary involved, and narrated their possible dialogue. rather funny haha.

bestia and i were dying from curiousity so after seok peng came and after footing the bill ($123), we left and tried to find the group of people but they were gone already. so disapointing! so as we were standing near the bugis fountain, we sabo stella to walk through it and get drenched by the water. but she didnt want! so i suggested we go together with her. lengshan said in a cheeky tone that 'theri like to get wet!'. it was so suggestive please! haha. and so bestia, mengli, szeying, shasha, junkai, stella and i took up the challenge. once the water stopped gushing up, we held hands and ran through barefooted, screaming! unfortunately, the water gushed up halfway through, and hit junkai, menfli and szeying full force because they were behind us! they were really drenched and szeying was mad that stella, the birthday girl who was supposed to be the victim, went through the incident unscathed. haha. people clapped, cheered and whistled for us as we ran through the fountain. and it was one of the craziest thing i've ever did in public! haha. would like to try it again! somehow, it gives you adrenaline rush too.

stella said that she enjoyed herself tremendously and i'm glad she did! birthdays are fun :D

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got to study for physical geog test now! its really taking a toll on me, studying. and although i'm not a fan of click 5, i really want to go to their concert! boo.

SUPER HUGE KAYA TOAST





Stella The Birthday Girl







the SUPER DA BEI NAI CHAI!













lengshan and i trying for the loudest burpbut to no avail! haha



















































in memory of my faithful boots



































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