from coach:

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, when the road you're trudging seems all uphill, when the funds are low and the debts are high, and you want to smile, but you have to sigh, when care is pressing you down abit, rest if you must- but dont you give quit or give up remember you still got me. jjc girl thanks for everything you did for me before. really thanks. hope you all will study hard and be good. sorry i didnt manage to help you all to get medals for a div hai. hee hee anything in life you encounter problem, when you need advice or help feel free to let me know. my offer is forever, take care my jjc soccer girl.:')

thanks my dear coach for everything, and for the impact you leave in me. you make me learn to love a sport that i was rather foreign to, and love it mightily too. you make the team and i become stronger girls, girls who will make a hell lot of difference in our future paths. love you!

and thanks miss lim, for bringing us all together. all 13 of us. some have left us during our journey, but this 13 remains, bonded with all togetherness.

last training yesterday, and it was a merry occasion. no tears, but an even stronger fondness for each other and for this sport we love. coach's last debrief to us really went straight into my heart. he gave us advice, his thoughts and shared with us some stories.

coach wants us to try out many things after we graduate, and live life to its fullest. and to always always treasure our friends, because to lose one is really painful. he lost a few close friends to death, and he related a tragic story of his best friend which pulled at my heartstrings.

coach said i'll be a good mother! and jasmine told him i'll have a very adventurous sex life with my future husband. LOL. like of course! and coach started asking us who's not straight in the team. my immediate reaction is to shoot stares at a particular couple. ahem. anyway coach said in the future, jingwen will do jobs associated with bargaining. the whole team laughed and suan her again haha.

gosh, time passes really really very quickly. i can still rememeber the first time i attended the very first soccer training, and i thought coach was a malay. and how i couldnt differentiate lixuan and brenda haha. well, from strangers to friends, from friends to a team, from a team to a family. i hope we wont walk out of each other lives, and cheers to more memories which are to come :)

sincerely hope our juniors will love and enjoy soccer as much as we do, and pass on the fire for this sport!

AND OHH! i saw something at our school corridor leading to the pe porch. by the time we ended soccer training and all, it was close to 8. the corridor was unlit, except for the girls toilet. i wanted to get a can of drink from the vending machine and as i walked there, i swear i saw a figure in tshirt and shorts walking into the wall! i was so stunned, i stood there for awhile before turning back to ask the girls to accompany me to get drinks. xianwen said its normal becuase apparently jj houses these 'brothers' and she experienced once too!

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i asked coach if he would get married in the future. and he replied, yes, if he found the right one. The Right One? i asked myself. it's really cliche, the whole mr. and miss right thingy. how would you know if he's the one? by your feelings, by this inner nagging voice thats telling you he's The One? well, i thought noi was My One. but ultimately, i lost him. Does fate plays a part in finding the someone which you can spend you life forever with? because people say 'whats meant to be yours, will be yours eventually.' so does that mean i dont have to fight after what my heart desire? or is finding The One means i'll fight hard to get him and make the relationship work out? say, could noi actually be The One but because we both didnt sacrifice or give enough, thus losing the relationship? also, could not being able to let go of a lost love stops you from knowing a whole new better person, who maybe The One? haha. the thing is, i dont want to let go.

i'm getting really cynical about love. love gets you down, doesnt it. yet deep down, i still believe in a happily ever after, in true love. no matter how fairy tale like it may seem, how cliche, how many questions i have, i'm sure My One is out there, somewhere for me :)

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went bowling with my parents today at yuan ching area. it was really fun playing with my parents. mom suggested the outing because she's having a compulsory company bowling competition coming up and she doesnt know how to bowl! my mom's a left hander but she bowls with her right. thats why i say left handers are really special haha. dad is a powerful bowler, except everytime he lets go of the ball, he lets go with such force, it always seems he's going to fall over! mom was so gentle, and she couldnt coordinate her steps and all very well. then she keep shaking her head in amusement because her ball keeps going into the gutter. after the bowling session, her fingers got so red! haha. 9 games in total,then we went to jurong point and shop at sportslink because there's discount! typical singaporean :) i bought a new pair of soccer boots because my old pair has officially retired, but is still truly my faithful partner :) i'll miss you! the feeling is like when harry potter lost his nimbus 2000 to the whomping willow :(
another family outing this coming saturday, and this time sis is able to go with us! we'll be going on the Singapore Flyer (jingwen: flyover -_-)! i seriously cant wait :)

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my darling's birthday is coming! i'm excited about it and hope she's too :)



Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come a day
When I would have to way
Make so many mistakes
I could'nt comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

I finally stopped tripping on my youth
I finally got lost inside of you
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally my maze has been solved

Finally
Now my destiny can begin
Though it will have a different set
Something strange and new is happening
Finally
Now my life doesn't seem so bad
Its the best that I've ever had
Give my love to him finally

I remember the beggining you already knew
I acted like a fool
Just trying to be cool
Fronting like it didn't matter
I just ran away
On another face
Was lost in my own space
Found what its like to hurt selfishly
Scared to give of me
Afraid to just believe
I was in a jealous, insecure, pathetic place
Stumbled through the nets that I have made

Finally got out of my own way
I've Finally started living for today
I finally know that I needed to grow
And finally know that

Finally, Finally

I'M MISSING MY EYECANDY!

DIDNT SEE HIM YESTERDAY

BUT ELAINE SAW HIM SINGING!

GOSH, HE IS CUTE. REALLY

CUTE.

will upload soccer photos soon!

liverpool lost to chelsea though :(

RRRAAAWWWWWWWWW

WHHHHHHHHHH.