tomorrow's the day already.

to be honest, i'm quite at peace with it. i remembered clearly how fretful i was before i took my O level results. how i couldnt fall asleep, how the anxiety keeps building up, how i felt like i was going to barf anytime. haha.

rather similar to the start of every 100m dash, and pre match pep talks.

but this time, i'm feeling quite relaxed, and in fact, rather excited, to receive my results. i thought i would be fill with a great sense of dread, but no, i was wrong.

confident? no, of course not. considering how much time i spend playing soccer, and how much of the remaining time was devoted to studying. haha. but i guess, i've come to the point where i've realised, that it makes no sense worrying over something that have already be defined months ago. you cant change it anymore, can you?

also, i've talked to my parents and my aunt, and they were really encouraging about it. through these talks, i know that even though i may screw up for my As, it is not the end of everything. nor will it be the end of my education.

because i really enjoy learning. ohhk, not maths and science of course. those subjects are out of my radar haha. but i enjoy humanities, and even during my holidays, i do read up on some stuff, like history. also, working with my aunt have evoked in me a certain interest for business management. and i started to see a whole new different side of running a business (i.e you may be the boss, or not). the challenge of it all drives my curiousity to learn more about it.

thus, in the event of unsatisfactory results, i would definitely still continue my education. private uni, maybe? or night classes. there's always a solution to everything, as long as you want it, and never stop finding.

i'll certainly not let a piece of paper determine the kind of future i would have :)

but of course, if i do well, there's going to be headaches too. because, which course should i go! i want to take a double degree in history and geography, but i'm also interested in law and business administration. haha. something needs to click first. its like, my mind and heart are a jigsaw puzzle i'm almost done there. the picture's almost perfect. but there are still some missing pieces. i know what i want to do, but its a rather hazy vision. i need the mssing pieces. then, i'll be able to make the perfect decision.

ohh! i've finally registered for driving. will be taking my basic theory next month. this month's too packed already. jasmine's chalet, clash of the titans, two futsal compeition... no time to study. i cant wait to pass my basic theory, start practical, study for advanced, and get my license. then, i'll go for a bike license when my dad starts working overseas! haha. probably that would take about a year or so though.

i'm becoming more finacial savvy too! :D trying to plan my finances properly, getting alot of advice from my aunt. dad bought life insurance for sis and me, but i'm thinking of buying one endownment insurance for myself, which would be an important investment. but first, i need to find out more about all these suff.

my first test though, would be this very particular month! most of the girls are march babies (ohh well!). while i've already planned on what to get for them, keeing to the budget is another thing! haha.

alright, time to sleep :) i'm hoping that i'll dream of 4 As! the last time my dream came true, it was liverpool vs chelsea during first half of the season! i dreamt that we scored 1-0 and won, and we did! hahaha.

and by the way, hear this particular exhilarating news on the radio yesterday:

LIVERPOOL MAY COME TO SINGAPORE FOR A FRIENDLY WITH THE SPORE LIONS DURING JUNE OR JULY!

NOW TELL ME, HOW COOL IS THAT!

CHEERS :D

dad got so angry with me for playing guns n' roses songs. he said its crap music and its so noisy. woah, he must be alittle deaf then. hardcore music, with a hardcore guitarist!