to make things worse, today happened to be my second day of menses. i felt so lethargic, distracted and disorientated. i felt like i'm floating through air, and am moving around only when the wind blows. i really miss him so much. i do. seeing his new girl and him walking around the school today made me feel so weak. i just want to cry and cry and cry. i still remembered i baked a big boy figure cookie for valentine last year and he told me his family and him enjoyed it. today, how badly i wanted to pass him the packet of cookies i baked. but i dont trust my voice and my emotions if i were to talk to him. what made things more depressing for me is that i couldnt perform well for training today. i felt i couldnt give in my best.
but of course, i've still got great friends around me to add a little sunshine to grey days like these. got valentine gifts from my clique and the soccer girls. got to kiss brenda too! i just love receiving and giving away kisses :) thanks for everything dear friends! and today! its revealed who my angel is! teo szeying! i guessed correctly lar. ever since her first anonymous gift for me. szeying's valentine's msg to me touched me alot. she's someone whom i really enjoy heart to heat talk with :) junkai, my mortal, totally couldnt guess i was his angel! the angel and mortal game is really fun to play, especially when looking at your mortal's facial expression upon receiving his/her anonymous gift from you!
anyway, a phto of sweetheart and me yst. i love my nerdy style. the only lacking is the black thick plastic frame specs! :)
i want to get over you soon. if not, you will just keep spoiling my days. i dont want a miserable me. i want to be happy again, without you infiltrating my every thoughts.
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