i really dreaded valentine's day this year. though i busied myself with baking cookies for my friends and acted like i am all excited, the truth is no, i am not. for the past three years, i spent this special day with him, but this year, he's spending it with another girl, he's new love.
to make things worse, today happened to be my second day of menses. i felt so lethargic, distracted and disorientated. i felt like i'm floating through air, and am moving around only when the wind blows. i really miss him so much. i do. seeing his new girl and him walking around the school today made me feel so weak. i just want to cry and cry and cry. i still remembered i baked a big boy figure cookie for valentine last year and he told me his family and him enjoyed it. today, how badly i wanted to pass him the packet of cookies i baked. but i dont trust my voice and my emotions if i were to talk to him. what made things more depressing for me is that i couldnt perform well for training today. i felt i couldnt give in my best.
but of course, i've still got great friends around me to add a little sunshine to grey days like these. got valentine gifts from my clique and the soccer girls. got to kiss brenda too! i just love receiving and giving away kisses :) thanks for everything dear friends! and today! its revealed who my angel is! teo szeying! i guessed correctly lar. ever since her first anonymous gift for me. szeying's valentine's msg to me touched me alot. she's someone whom i really enjoy heart to heat talk with :) junkai, my mortal, totally couldnt guess i was his angel! the angel and mortal game is really fun to play, especially when looking at your mortal's facial expression upon receiving his/her anonymous gift from you!
anyway, a phto of sweetheart and me yst. i love my nerdy style. the only lacking is the black thick plastic frame specs! :)
i want to get over you soon. if not, you will just keep spoiling my days. i dont want a miserable me. i want to be happy again, without you infiltrating my every thoughts.
to make things worse, today happened to be my second day of menses. i felt so lethargic, distracted and disorientated. i felt like i'm floating through air, and am moving around only when the wind blows. i really miss him so much. i do. seeing his new girl and him walking around the school today made me feel so weak. i just want to cry and cry and cry. i still remembered i baked a big boy figure cookie for valentine last year and he told me his family and him enjoyed it. today, how badly i wanted to pass him the packet of cookies i baked. but i dont trust my voice and my emotions if i were to talk to him. what made things more depressing for me is that i couldnt perform well for training today. i felt i couldnt give in my best.
but of course, i've still got great friends around me to add a little sunshine to grey days like these. got valentine gifts from my clique and the soccer girls. got to kiss brenda too! i just love receiving and giving away kisses :) thanks for everything dear friends! and today! its revealed who my angel is! teo szeying! i guessed correctly lar. ever since her first anonymous gift for me. szeying's valentine's msg to me touched me alot. she's someone whom i really enjoy heart to heat talk with :) junkai, my mortal, totally couldnt guess i was his angel! the angel and mortal game is really fun to play, especially when looking at your mortal's facial expression upon receiving his/her anonymous gift from you!
anyway, a phto of sweetheart and me yst. i love my nerdy style. the only lacking is the black thick plastic frame specs! :)
i want to get over you soon. if not, you will just keep spoiling my days. i dont want a miserable me. i want to be happy again, without you infiltrating my every thoughts.
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