new friends are silver,
old friends are gold.

how true.

every moment when i dwell in the company of my secondary school friends, is equivalent to every second of indescribable happiness. the epitome of my statement is yesterday's deepavali visit to suresh's house.

the old npcc clique met up and i cant explain why or how but it just feels so good. its not just them but when i'm with my other secondary mates as well. there's no need for words or much talk, but the mere presence of each other makes me feel so blessed. and even if we have nothing to do, just sitting down and get all nostalgic about the past, is one of the most enthralling experience. we will laugh about our silliness, frown upon our past mistakes and wonder heyy, are we actually that naive, look back and see how we've grown together, recount the thick and thin we've been through as our frienship continues to develop into an unbreakable bond. relieving all these wonderful memories leaves me feeling bitter-sweet, and often with precipitation that threatens to fall over the edge of my eyes too.

it occurs to me how real seperation is and how inevitable is it in our lives too. we can no longer go about the same thing as we did in the past. because circumstances change and circumstances change people too. your friend might have a different attitude or outlook of life now and to you, he's no longer the old guy. well, you might have changed too. i did. but as the saying goes, change is the only constant (interesting paradox huh), so we've got to accept and adapt to the new them, which is of course, not neccessarily negative. in fact, this is all part of growing together and i believe our friendship will grow stronger.

and it is all up to ourselves to organise gatherings or even take the initiative to message or call the friend whom we've been missing so much. but sometimes, we let our busyness get the better of us and we failed to do what we ought to do, thus paving way for the greying of a friendship. and i am guilty of it all, and nothing can vindicate me.

but right now, i want to say a heartfelt thank you to all my secondary school friends for weaving a wonderful journey in my secondary school life for me. i dont think i will be able to forget any of you. and i'm really sorry for seeming to be neglecting or not answering any calls or smses.

sometimes i really wish for a time machine.

you guys are my shunshine;
who make me happy when
skies are grey.

loves forever.