today is "get-back-your-promos-results-and-be-depressed" day. well, i wasnt exactly depressed, but i wasnt happy either. i did managed to scrape a pass for both my failing subjects- econs and maths but the results for the others were very average. miss ho tried to knock some sense into the whole h1 maths lecture today because all of our results really sucks, but it failed to assuage my guilt and instead, i could only feel worse. i should have given in my best.

school's now a pain in the ass for me. except for friends and trainings of course. and ohh, there's a soccer match tommorrow-we girls vs the teachers. i guess it will be real hilarious and funny.

to soccer girls: thanks for the really sweet birthday card! i was very touched reading messages from each of you. i truly appreciate and love the whole team alot. i believe this special team of ours will continue to improve and do magic like never before :)

to clique: thanks yet again for the liverpool mini soccer ball. its always something i coveted for. so now i'm owning 2 liverpool merchandises- a shoebag and soccer ball! i dont mind a jersey for xmas. haha! liverpool is cool like anything :)

you let go that easily;
and i continue to fall into the abyss of nothingness.
around you,
its a smile and some small talks;
which belied the hollowness inside.
i'm not a saint dear boy;
for i yearned to inflict hurt and pain deep into your gut.
because havent you heard?
an eye for an eye.
its you i want to hate with all my being.
but yet, i cant bring myself to;
i've failed utterly.
i've loved too much;
you who shattered my cinderalla dreams.

i think i'm really going bonkers. how can one's emotions be so extreme at the same time- i'm rocketing up to heaven yet plunging into hell.