Thought #1

As you lay,
Down on your bed.
Staring at the blank ceiling,
Thinking of once-when-we-were.

Living in the present,
Feels like living in the past,
When of all that matters seem so far away.

Virtual or reality,
You decide.

As you lay,
Down on your bed.
Behind closed eyes,
Lurk the memories of once-when-we-were.

Of all the beautiful and the sad,
Those remembered choose to be sad,
And the beautiful marks the tracks of memory lane.

Fact or fiction,
You decide.

As you lay,
Down on your bed.
Groping in the dark,
For you are alone now,
Compared to once-when-we-were.

Getting used to being beside you,
Did not seem as hard,
As getting used to being without you.

A need or a want.
You decide.


Thought #2

Hey there Stranger.
Who do you see?
Each time you look in the mirror?

When you lose someone, something,
That meant so dear to you.
How do you get back on track?

You don’t.

When you lose that someone, something,
It leaves a hole in you.
You don’t just cover it up,
You don’t just fill it up.

Hey there Stranger.
You look familiar.
Do I know you?

You become someone else without realizing it,
You become someone else you never thought you would,
You become someone else u never knew.

To fill up the hole,
You create a different thinking in you.

To cover up the hole,
You create a different personality.

To hide the hole,
You lead a life of lies.

Hey there Stranger.
Why don’t I know you?
When you are me and I am you?

You lose yourself when you choose to lead a life of lies.
You forget who you are when you let all that happened pass you by.

You look in the mirror,
And all you can see,
Is someone you don’t recognize.
It’s never You, Yourself nor I.

Thought #3

Bring me happiness,
Bring me joy.
You run me like a business,
And treat me like a toy.
I don’t want to stay here any longer,
Cause what don’t kill me makes me stronger.

written by bestie yishu :) stay strong brother! love can be found yet again. will always be here for you!

anyway i thought i wont be working. but a job opportunity came knocking and i just grabbed it. keying in of data entry, $7.50 an hour. i know i know i know that its boring, plus the workplace's at kallang. BUT i really need the money so i shall endure this mundane responsibilty for 3 weeks! the plus point however is, i'm near to town! so can chill out after work every now and then :) and i would also be richer! hahaha.

hmms. and i thought crush and like is the same? what about in between then? or what about more than in between? ponders...

to chris: i love you x1000000000000000000000000000000000 times too! hahahaha.